Monday: A great day of peace...

For a Monday today was a great day… I have not had a great Monday in a long time and nothing extraordinary really happened.  It was just a day I was able to remember that I am a child of God and that is something amazing… I was able to look at the breeze outside that we were blessed with and hear the birds chirping and just have such a feeling of peace and calm… Of course I was meet with issues but was able to deal with them calmly and get them take care of because I realized they were not my issue but Gods… Some may think I speak of God quite often in some of my blogs, but that is due to the fact I am improving my relationship with God more and more every day and it is a very exciting adventure…I am not an expert on any of this… I am just learning to listen to what I'm told and obey…Yes it is harder than you would think…Believe me I still do most things with resistance…But in the end I end up doing it… I was able to spend yesterday morning church service with my parents and their church family…I always feel as if I'm home when I go visit their church..They are truly an amazing group of christian people…The service was just what I needed to start my week off right…I needed to get myself "Lower" and a dear sweet lady would say…I needed to open myself up and be able to receive what God has planned for me this week…Day one is going good…Have felt better than I have felt in a long time…This past week I received a call from a sweet lady thanking me for something I had done…I had given a few necklaces to a lady trying to do a silent auction for a good cause…That is all I did, it took no time or money at all to do it…Just willingness to help…Then I received one of the best voicemails I have in a long time just full true thankfulness for my giving…Something so simple for me to do was greatly appreciated…That is an awesome filling I have to admit…Following that note it's seems so simple to just say a prayer for someone in need or just frustrated.. Just a minute of your time to silently say a prayer..I use to be of the mind that I was not worthy enough to pray for anyone or I would say something stupid..But I have since learned there are no stupid prayers….As long as you are willing to pray from your heart it can't be wrong.. A prayer from the heart is like music to God's ears…I have found when I do I feel such a peace and fulfilled feeling for saying a quick prayer…It's amazing how it all works… I am currently going through a season in my life that is difficult and I struggle with it daily, but I know that if I keep my focus on God and keep my devotion to him in the end It will be amazing and the outcome will be a win for me…I am so excited for what is to come for me and I am at the same time terrified….But it will all be worth it…I can do all things through Christ…Just open my heart and mind and be willing to be loved unconditionally and realize that I am worth it….. What an awesome feeling..Some may think I have lost my marbles or just going bonkers, but if my posting any of this I can make one person feel better than my mission was accomplished and that is well worth it for me, just one person.. If not it feels great just to share my peaceful day…

Easter Sunday

Well it has been 1 week since our retreat last weekend.  As I expected I had my good and bad days this week with struggles that I have always let get to me.  Trying to not dwell on them and move on I found that sometimes I was able to walk away from the situation at the moment and spend just a few seconds of quite time and "realign" myself I guess you could say and have a sense of calm about the situation that had gotten me all wound up.  Then there were some that just sent me back into my pattern of frustration.. So i'd say it was a small but good step into the direction i need to be going.  

I have my little comfort zone that I LOVE to stay in and very rarely go outside of for anything if I don't have to…Well last weekend I got kicked out of my comfort zone but it was okay, I survived and had a great sense of peace after I did… Today at church I found myself doing my usual routine I guess you could say, but GUESS what…. Kicked out again… I got to see almost all of the awesome ladies that I met at the retreat today, minus one… I missed my Vicki…. I am still so much in awe at how amazing this group of women are and I've only really met a few of them twice… But I am grateful for the fact  that I have them in my life now, even if it just by correspondence or occasional church gatherings… I know that with them in my corner as well as my improving relationship with God I can get thru things… 

Found out that the speaker from our retreat and the very talented family that ran the praise part of the retreat will be at church… So I am excited for that and can't wait to be there that day… That will truly be an awesome worship… EXCITED….

And If you are wondering for some reason some of my post have a common theme, well they do… I am a human being trying to do the best I can in life and make my family and my kids the best that they can be but realized I can't do it alone… That without a strong relationship with God I'm lost now matter how much I think I have things handled, I don't…So I'm EXCITED for my new found love for God, where our relationship will be going… Do I understand all of it, absolutely not, I'm still learning and have a long ways to go… 

Today's Verse form Jesus is Calling: 

I AM THE POTTER; you are My clay.  I designed you before the foundation of the world. I arrange the evens of each day to form you into this preconceived pattern.  My everlasting Love is at work in every event of your life. On some days your will and Mine flow smoothly together.  You tend to feel in control of your life when our wills are in harmony.  On other days you feel as if you are swimming upstream, against the current of My purposes.  When that happens, stop and seek My Face.  The opposition you feel may be from Me, or it may be from the evil one. 

Talk with Me about what you are experiencing.  Let me My Spirit guide you through treacherous waters.  As you move through the turbulent stream with Me, let circumstances mold you into the one I desire you to be.  Say yes to your Potter as you go through this day. 

ISAIAH 64:8 and PSALM 27:8 

HUM… Fitting for today and this past week… 

Weekend Renewal

What an amazing and powerful weekend of the best rejuvenation I have ever had.... 

To start it off let's start with what the scriptures are for today as listed in "Jesus is Calling" for April 1st... 

I AM CALLING YOU to a life of constant communication with Me. Basic training includes learning to live about your circumstances, even while interacting on that cluttered plane of life. You yearn for a simplified lifestyle, so that your communication with Me can be uninterrupted.  But I challenge you to relinquish the fantasy of an uncluttered world.  Accept each day just as it comes, and find Me in the midst of it all. 

Talk with Me about every aspect of your day, including your feelings. Remember that your ultimate goal is not to control or fix everything around you; it is a to keep communication with Me. A successful day is one in which you have stayed in touch with Me, even if many things remain undone at the end of the day.  Do not let your to-do list (written or mental) become an idol directing your life.  Instead, ask My Spirit to guide you moment by moment.  He will keep you close to Me. 

I Thessalonians 5:17; Proverbs 3:6

WOW... After the weekend I have had at the women's retreat this hits the nail right on the head and goes along with the whole message I was able to receive this weekend.

  

I attended my very first Promise Helpers Women's Retreat this weekend.  It was just what I needed. A weekend of fellowship with some really amazing women and it was by far the best worship I have ever been around in my life. Truly an awesome and powerful group of women. I was able to meet some really great people who I will remember always. Along with spending the weekend with my mom to top it off.  I have found myself the past couple of months looking for something but not knowing exactly what, just knowing I was unhappy with my life, where I was at.  I could not decided if it was personal, work related or what it was. After this weekend I now know that it was a combination of all of these areas. Because my relationship with God has not been any where it needs to be and I have well been lost for quit some time that it was causing my whole life and those areas around me to be out of "wack" per say.  So of course it all felt wrong and I was missing the biggest thing of all, my relationship and love for God.  I have known in my mind for sometime that I need to find my way back to the Lord but didn't really know how.  I wasn't sure if I was or would do something wrong or honestly how it would look to those around me.. How foolish of me that was. The biggest word I received this weekend for me personally was WORTHY.  I did not believe I was worthy, but I am.  I AM. I now know where I need to start to strengthen my walk with God, and as long as I can manage my best at this point in time and worship, serve, love and thank him with my whole heart and to the best of my ability then I can't be doing it wrong.  It's a learning process the more I soak in the more I will receive.  Granted I know most of the time I might not understand or comprehend what I will receive but here's to hoping I can find the strength at each point in time to just say "Yes God" and do what he is asking of me.  Those who know me know I love to argue and question things, so this will be a battle. But with the "tools" I received this weekend and the amazing friends I have meet I can do this!  Good days and bad days, I CAN DO THIS. I know life happens, and it will continue to happen ( it has already happened today) but I was able to realize... to step back from the situation I was in, pray for the strength to get through it and Guess what I did!  Granted today it was just small steps and small life miss haps I guess you call them and I know there will be more and bigger one's coming at me.  Yes, right now I know I am on a "spiritual high", but I'm enjoying it and going to ride it out as long as I can.  So looking forward to the next retreat and I left at noon today.