Blessed..

Okay.  I know most of my blog entries are about God and my life with him and my struggles.  I have just come to realize that when I blog it's because something in my life has happened and God is using it in some way to better and strengthen me.  I finally came to decision that I would use my blog as my public journal  about my walk with God.  Some people may "hate it", some people may think it's ridiculous.  But if just one person says "Hey that helped me I needed that" just one, then you know what, it was all worth it.  Maybe this is my way of getting God's greatness out to people.  Because even if it's a post about something that I'm not quite sure about or a struggle I'm having then it can too be used for good in his ultimate plan.  Read if you wish, if not I hope you have a great day. 

So with that rather long introduction here is today's post. 

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My devotionals for today are these passages: 

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DO EVERYTHING in dependence of Me.  The desire to act independently - apart from Me - springs from the root of pride.  Self-sufficiency is subtle, insinuating its way into your thoughts and actions without your realizing it.  But apart from Me, you can do nothing: that is, nothing of eternal value.  My deepest desire for you is that you learn to depend on Me in every situation.  I move heaven and earth to accomplish this purpose, but you must collaborate with Me in this training.  Teaching you would be simple if I negated your free will or overwhelmed you with My Power. However, I love you too much to withdraw the godlike privilege I bestowed on you as My image-bearer.  Use your freedom wisely, by relying on Me constantly.  Thus you enjoy My Presence and My Peace. 

John 15:5; Ephesians 6:10; Genesis 1:26-27

From the September 6th passage out of Jesus Calling

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Let Your Light Shine

The grace of God…has trained us to reject and renounce all ungodliness (irreligion) and worldly (passionate) desires, to live discreet (temperate, self-controlled), upright, devout (spiritually whole) lives in his present world. 

TITUS 2:11-12

Although you live in the world, you are not to be of the world…worldly in your ways.  Because it is easy to become worldly without realizing it, you need the godly influence of spiritually mature people in your life.  You also need to be a student of God's Word, which can change your ungodly desires and train and establish godly character in you. 

As a child of God, you are to be a light to others who dwell in darkness. People should be able to tell by your joy, the light in your eyes, the way you treat people, the way you talk about people - or don't talk about them - that you are a Christian.  

Determine now that you will be a light in this present world.  Ask God to help you glorify Him through your choices and actions. 

For September 6th passage out of Ending Your Day Right Devotions by Joyce Meyers. 

Well both of these hit home to me today.  

The first of course depending on God for everything and every single situation and not depending on yourself to take care of it.  Why this is such a hard one to remember.  I have progressed and gotten better, and I do not panic as much with situations now as I use to.  I always tell myself now that not matter what happens it's out of my control and God will make it work out the way it's meant to be.  

Case in point, my lack of a job even a part-time. Since I left my previous employer I filled out approximately 20 applications and been on at least 6 interviews.  Of course all have come back not hired for various reasons.  Which is very frustrating for me. Someone who has pretty much worked since I left high school.  I have gone back and forth between the whole I want the pay and security of a full-time job, to wanting a part-time job due to the hours so I can take the kids to and from school myself.  Even to the part-time job part of the week so I could have some down time to myself. All the way to not working at all and just go back to school at the beginning of the year.  

I decided last night that I really wanted to look into going back to school again and getting something. Well anyone who knows me knows i'm not going to spend upwards of 40k to go back to a school for a bachelors degree in something i really do not wish to do. The culinary school seem to be getting even more expensive than a regular college now days.  I found a school that seems to cater to everyone.  Those who wish to go during the day and those of us with obligations that prohibit us for going by offering a couple weekend and some evening classes.  Well how awesome is that.  The course I'm looking at is 16 months long and you can finish it in 12 months if I double up on one of the trimesters.  So actually it's not a far fetched idea.  This could be possible. So maybe i'm starting to see the bigger picture at the moment for my situation. So instead of being frustrated as I have been I need to sit back and say "Okay God your know me better than I know myself, you know what is best for me and my family then I do.  Here is the reigns take them and lead me to where you will me to be."  Because maybe just maybe he is sending me in the exact direction I am meant to be in right now and things I thought and wanted and didn't think were possible are actually possible if it's his will.  Needless to say I'm getting pretty excited.  

The second devotional about not being of this world and finding spiritually mature people to be in your life.  I do in fact think that one should surround themselves with mature spiritual people.  I have been blessed this past year to meet some many wonderful people who have come into my life.  To be truthfully honest I could not be where I am today without any of them and I know they are just a phone call away or a prayer away if needed.  How awesome is that.  I have a great group of friends and ladies at my parent's church and they are all so awesome and amazing at how much they truly live for God.  I have been blessed to attending a local church that is starting to really grow into something great.  I have also been blessed with going to counseling these past few months and finding myself a really good person to be with.  One that challenges me to make sure what I do and what I think is about God and making sure I let him control things and not me.   So for that I am so truly blessed.  

Things of this world (earthy things) can be crumbling around you or creating havoc and just frustration you completely. But when you sit down and think of about how much God loves you and If you are willing to listen then you can see just how truly blessed you are at that moment in your life.  I know this is way easier said than done.

Well I guess this all I am going to post tonight. That is all I felt like I needed to say. 

I will end with this.  As I above mentioned I do go to counseling and have been gifted with an great person.  I am sad to say that as of next week I will be finished with the group of sessions I was blessed to have without financial responsibility.  So with that I want to just ask you all to pray.  To pray that if God sees fit I keep going that it will happen and if God's plan is something else then grant me peace to be okay with that decision and move on.  For as I've said it's not in my hands but his.  Hope everyone has a great evening and/or day which ever it is for you.