How To Just Let Go....

How to let go…

I have struggled with personal issues for a while several months to be more specific.  I am still struggling today. I have good and bad days.  I am one that does not forgive very easy and if I do forgive I never forget and it always has been a down fall of mine.  I let things stir and fester and then just explode. 

So with that being said I'm really struggling with letting go.  How to let go of the frustration and anger that has been festering for so many years that has caused hatred to takes its place.  Specially when there are sometimes daily reminders of it. It has consumed my life for so long and tormented me.  I'm so exhausted from it and want to be rid of it and done with it. But the sheer fact of letting it go is not an easy task for me at all.  It's easier for me to hold on to it and then I have a reason to be unpleasant and unhappy.  But I am so tired of being unhappy. 

Still letting go…. When it's in the sheer volume and magnitude I have I just can't even fathom it right now. 

I am not the same person I was this time last year or even at the beginning of this year. But I still have a long ways to go to get to the person I need to be.  I am trying to change myself for the better and be the person God wants me to be, but in the mean time it makes me wonder if things in my life are fruits of rebellion from God or things God has given me and I have taken for granted.  Such a fine line when all of the anger and frustration is tied to it. 

So to let go, of the anger, the frustration, the hatred and forgive and move on.  

Sad to say right now that is still something I just can't fathom.  

Lord help me release these items up to you to allow me to let go of all my anger, frustration and hatred to work on repairing myself and forgive these things so I may move forward in my life with you.  Grant me peace. 

Thank the Lord tomorrow is a new day.  I hope everyone has a great and blessed day and If I get to see it that I can wake up and just trust and follow God completely tomorrow.  Step by step one at a time.